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2019
The lies I tell my heart need to be dispelled,
The lies of denial
I seek effortless joy, peace, and love
The effortless presence that came to me as a child.
The effortless smile
Now I find that I have to move two muscles behind my lips with all my brain cells
And clutch the space between my tongue, my taste and my teeth
So that my body does not breathe.
Parts of me live in denial
A part of me lives in peace
A part of me is grieving
A part of me stands still strong like the mountains, which holds everybody's weight with its wide arms.
A part of me lies all the time
A part of me loves to play hide and seek
A part of me is madly, deeply in love
A part of me is in ecstasy
A part of me has flowers growing in them
A part of me sings like the morning bird calling out to the glory of the sun.
A part of me is lost in the vastness of the sky
A part of me goes in circles
A part of me yearns to dance like no one is watching
A part of me desperately wants to heal
A part of me yearns for my mother's arms and longs for my father's acceptance.
A part of me is an un-ending firework
A part of me feels invincible
A part of me is raging like the thunder
A part of me….
And the list goes on, and maybe this is how I experience life through all these infinite parts.
It would be a crime against myself to be a better person than these infinite parts,
In probability, these parts are the universal YOU.
It's fear that wants to find the stand-alone
That tells you love has an extent.
Love is unhurried, existing with the uncertainty of a tomorrow.
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2019